… I’d like to feel sexy, but then that freakin’ mirror in the bathroom reminds me that I’m not.
… I wonder what it was like for the hos in high school. I don’t want to *be* a ho, just wonder what went thru their heads. Howdid they feel about themselves? About the guys they were with?
… I want a “Do whatever I want and get away with it” Pass. Do they sell those?
… I don’t write everything I eat down on my food log for boot camp. I ate 2 pizza rolls yesterday that I didn’t long bc I was too lazy to look up the calories.
… I think it’s awesome that my 3 yr old sings “Teenage Dirtbag” and “Gives You Hell.” Other times I think that must mean I’m a bad mom.
… I want to quit blogging, but then I know I’d miss it. Plus, I really like hosting giveaways!!
… I wanna stop babysitting kids. Ok- that’s not “sometimes,” that’s everyday.
… I wonder *why* we were suppose to move to Texas.
… I wish certain people would just disappear.
… I am totally jealous of my husband and his career.
… I wonder why my husband married me. I see him cringe at some of the things I say and do. lol
… I wonder if there will ever be a time when the exes aren’t acting like buttholes?
… I want to get a job outside of the home, but know I’m not qualified for anything. I also experience “Mom Guilt.”
… I wonder why my parents never bought me Doc Martens even though I asked for them for 3 Christmases in a row.
… I still feel insecure in who I am. You’d think I’d be over that since I’m freakin’ 33.
I’m glad that I’m not the only one with insecurities like this. It’s hard not having answers to questions and worrying about the same stuff over and over.
Tori, if it makes you feel better, I think you’re awesome. If it doesn’t make you feel better…well I’d better keep trying. ***Hugs***
So you haven’t learned anything in all your years of parenting? I’m sure you have many qualifications that you don’t even realize you have.
When it’s right you will be able to do something. like work at your kids school and then get paid to be with your kids and have all their holidays off. That’s my dream job. Ain’t gonna happen, but I”m a dreaming.
I will tell you that I love reading your blog. It’s the first one on my update list I go to when it shows a new post . I think you are beautiful. You are looking in the wrong mirror. Sei is only cringing cause he didn’t have the nerve to say it or do it first. Wait. that might be Allen, but it could be Sei.
I think it’s PMS and I don’t know why you had to move back to Texas. Maybe cause I just finally got off my butt and started to get to know you and then the Lord said, too late. I’ve got other stuff for her to do now. Or something like that. {{{Tori}}}
.-= Klin´s last blog ..Didn’t see that one coming…………. =-.
Ditto! Ditto! And Ditto! It doesn’t matter that we’re 33 really… sometimes I feel like I’m still in high school not fittin in with the “cool” people. And LOTS of times I don’t want to go to church either. And I don’t know WHY you moved to Texas either!!!
Hi, I am one of the silent reader of your blog. I enjoy reading your posts. This time I’ve added you in my top blog list.
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I think that #5 means your baby rocker will kick some serious boo-tay at guitar hero/rock band. haha
I wonder if there will ever be a time when the exes aren’t acting like buttholes um they’re supposed to act that way. It reminds you of two things 1 why you left in the first place, and 2 why you’re so happy with your current spouse
Give it two years, and then when your kids are all in school you can pick up a side job or something other than watching other people’s offspring and learning their dirty secrets. haha
Um the shear awesomeness of your blog should be evidence enough that you really shouldn’t worry too much about the self-confidence thing. You are the apitome of rad
.-= Physcokity´s last blog ..JARB =-.
*Consider this being me running through your blog with a banner that says VOTE FOR TORI and sporting a t-shirt with the of Rock of Love Tori:) picture on the front.*
.-= Physcokity´s last blog ..JARB =-.
How come your blog never lets me know when you have a new post?
I understand the wanting to quit blogging, but I would really miss reading what’s going on in your life. Facebook is fine, but I’m finding I feel I have to keep getting on the computer (and I know I need to get other things done ; )
Sei knows how blessed he is to have a wonderful wife like you. You go to Church because you KNOW it’s where you need to be ; )
Remember there is a time and a season for everything.
You know how much I love you so…….. enough said……. except:
- Your mirror is broken.
- We know some of them…. let’s ask them.
- If they do, I’d like two, please.
- You’re awesome for keeping a food blog & going to boot camp. I just complain that I’m a lard ass & don’t ever do anything about it.
- You are a TOTALLY RAD mom!! You have to pick your battles, right?
- We LOVE your blogging.
- I’m hopefully fixin’ to help you w/that.
- Hello?! To live close to me again!!! LOL
- Are they the same certain people I wish would?
- Your husband does have a way cool career. BUT you’re a mom ~ that’s an awesome career too.
- Klin is right….
- I agree w/Physcokity on the ex thing…. especially your ex.
- Again – working on that. & no Mom Guilt b/c you’ll be home when the kiddos are.
- Do you really wan to go there? LOL *my parents never bought me a Cabbage Patch Kid either b/c they thought they were ugly. *
- You shouldn’t feel insecure. There’s not enough room here to miss all of the wonderful things about you that you should see in yourself. Again – you know how much I love you….
- We talked about this the other night. I’m sure it didn’t help, but you know my take on it.
- Can’t help ya there….. you know I can’t keep my mouth shut. :-0
You are one of the most awesome moms that I know! I am 32 and I feel the same way of things too. I’ve only been to church twice in the past 3 months. It’s hard taking the kids by myself and I don’t feel like I get anything out of it since I am chasing my 1 year old around.
I don’t know why you moved to Texas either. I was just getting to know you and we could have met up.
So is there an initiation or something special I have to do to get on your blog roll?
.-= Stacey´s last blog ..My Birthday! =-.
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I’m glad that I’m not the only one with insecurities like this. It’s hard not having answers to questions and worrying about the same stuff over and over.
Tori, if it makes you feel better, I think you’re awesome. If it doesn’t make you feel better…well I’d better keep trying.
***Hugs***
So you haven’t learned anything in all your years of parenting? I’m sure you have many qualifications that you don’t even realize you have.
When it’s right you will be able to do something. like work at your kids school and then get paid to be with your kids and have all their holidays off. That’s my dream job. Ain’t gonna happen, but I”m a dreaming.
I will tell you that I love reading your blog. It’s the first one on my update list I go to when it shows a new post . I think you are beautiful. You are looking in the wrong mirror. Sei is only cringing cause he didn’t have the nerve to say it or do it first. Wait. that might be Allen, but it could be Sei.
I think it’s PMS and I don’t know why you had to move back to Texas. Maybe cause I just finally got off my butt and started to get to know you and then the Lord said, too late. I’ve got other stuff for her to do now. Or something like that. {{{Tori}}}
.-= Klin´s last blog ..Didn’t see that one coming…………. =-.
Did you think all these things in one sitting? In that order? Fascinating!
.-= June Freaking Cleaver´s last blog ..Rewarded for Our Troubles =-.
Ditto! Ditto! And Ditto! It doesn’t matter that we’re 33 really… sometimes I feel like I’m still in high school not fittin in with the “cool” people. And LOTS of times I don’t want to go to church either. And I don’t know WHY you moved to Texas either!!!
Hi, I am one of the silent reader of your blog. I enjoy reading your posts. This time I’ve added you in my top blog list.
If you have any change and want any change in the list then please do inform me. I hope you’ll to love to add me in your blog list.
HapBlog Bloglist
I think that #5 means your baby rocker will kick some serious boo-tay at guitar hero/rock band. haha
I wonder if there will ever be a time when the exes aren’t acting like buttholes um they’re supposed to act that way. It reminds you of two things 1 why you left in the first place, and 2 why you’re so happy with your current spouse
Give it two years, and then when your kids are all in school you can pick up a side job or something other than watching other people’s offspring and learning their dirty secrets. haha
Um the shear awesomeness of your blog should be evidence enough that you really shouldn’t worry too much about the self-confidence thing. You are the apitome of rad
.-= Physcokity´s last blog ..JARB =-.
Um missed the whole spell check thingy
apitome-epitome.
*Consider this being me running through your blog with a banner that says VOTE FOR TORI
and sporting a t-shirt with the of Rock of Love Tori:) picture on the front.*
.-= Physcokity´s last blog ..JARB =-.
This made me sad…I wish you realized how awesome you really are!
I am SO with you about babysitting!
.-= nancy face´s last blog ..Cool Beans! =-.
How come your blog never lets me know when you have a new post?
I understand the wanting to quit blogging, but I would really miss reading what’s going on in your life. Facebook is fine, but I’m finding I feel I have to keep getting on the computer (and I know I need to get other things done ; )
Sei knows how blessed he is to have a wonderful wife like you. You go to Church because you KNOW it’s where you need to be ; )
Remember there is a time and a season for everything.
I consider you a good friend and love your wit and your sense of humor. Did you ever get my e-mail???
.-= yvonne´s last blog ..What I Know Wednesday–The Value of Counting My Blessings =-.
You know how much I love you so…….. enough said……. except:
*
- Your mirror is broken.
- We know some of them…. let’s ask them.
- If they do, I’d like two, please.
- You’re awesome for keeping a food blog & going to boot camp. I just complain that I’m a lard ass & don’t ever do anything about it.
- You are a TOTALLY RAD mom!! You have to pick your battles, right?
- We LOVE your blogging.
- I’m hopefully fixin’ to help you w/that.
- Hello?! To live close to me again!!! LOL
- Are they the same certain people I wish would?
- Your husband does have a way cool career. BUT you’re a mom ~ that’s an awesome career too.
- Klin is right….
- I agree w/Physcokity on the ex thing…. especially your ex.
- Again – working on that. & no Mom Guilt b/c you’ll be home when the kiddos are.
- Do you really wan to go there? LOL *my parents never bought me a Cabbage Patch Kid either b/c they thought they were ugly.
- You shouldn’t feel insecure. There’s not enough room here to miss all of the wonderful things about you that you should see in yourself. Again – you know how much I love you….
- We talked about this the other night. I’m sure it didn’t help, but you know my take on it.
- Can’t help ya there….. you know I can’t keep my mouth shut. :-0
I’m glad you talk too much….especially talking with your keyboard on your blog!
.-= Janet Carpenter´s last blog ..friday0821 =-.
You are one of the most awesome moms that I know! I am 32 and I feel the same way of things too. I’ve only been to church twice in the past 3 months. It’s hard taking the kids by myself and I don’t feel like I get anything out of it since I am chasing my 1 year old around.
I don’t know why you moved to Texas either. I was just getting to know you and we could have met up.
So is there an initiation or something special I have to do to get on your blog roll?
.-= Stacey´s last blog ..My Birthday! =-.
You never got Doc Martens because we could not afford them. Something about having too many kids. Can you relate?!
Tori, I am with Yvonne…I never get updates in my reader for your blog. Sad!
Anyway, I think you are an awesome mom. And I think you are so gorgeous.