So the other night Seiuli was out saving the world, my 3 oldest were at the ex’s and I was watching “Titanic” all the while knowing it was going to end badly… Fast-forward an hour. I had fallen asleep in my bed with Taj and Livie squishing me right to the edge. The doors were locked, house alarm was on, Indy, the dog was on guard duty in the living room, bedroom door was locked and gun was within reaching distance (only at night…)

Anyway, I don’t know if I had my eyes opened or if what I saw I saw only in my dream. But I saw a silhouette of a man standing right next to my bed. Holy Hell Y’all! I screamed; Screamed like I have never been able to scream while dreaming. You know how usually a dream-scream gets caught in your throat and you end up sounding totally weird? Welp, not this time. I screamed and I kicked that silhouette with all my might. If it had actually had a crotch it would have been in a lot of pain. But, alas, my foot went right through the “man” and I woke up. OMgosh… I can’t even explain how I was feeling. I looked over to Taj who was now sitting up in bed. I asked him, “Did I scream?” He answered with very wide eyes, “Yes.” “Sorry dude. I had a bad dream.”

It took a second for it to sink in that there was no man by my bed. Then I kinda got a little stoked because my mind and body thought there was a man in my room and I didn’t just lay there or freeze in fear. I freakin’ screamed, kicked and if my foot hadn’t gone thru him I would have kept kicking while grabbing my gun. I was ready to fight!! Yay! I’m not a wimp!! I didn’t really picture myself as a screamer, but I’ll take it.

I called Sei and was trying to sound all normal, but since it was 1am he knew something was up. My hands were shaking so bad. I told him what happened, laughed about my arse-kicking ability and then he says, “Were your eyes closed? Because maybe it was a spirit…” Really Seiuli?? It was the weirdest feeling because even though I now realized and knew there was no man next to my bed, my body and brain didn’t seem to know the difference. They had reacted like there was a man in my room. Just writing that creeps me out… It was really hard to calm down. I didn’t like the dark room anymore and Taj didn’t either. We turned on “Phineus and Ferb,” I set a timer for the tv and eventually we both drifted off to sleep. But last night was again kind of creepy. I knew it was a dream, but man… in my head I’m thinking, “What if there HAD been a man there? What could have happened?” Aaack!!! I took 2 melatonin and eventually fell asleep. But thinking about going to bed tonight is kind of freakin’ me out a little. Isn’t that weird? I’ve had dreams that were freaky at the time, but didn’t linger for days like this one has lingered. I think because this one was SO real I’m having a harder time forgetting it. I will be happy to have my man home all week so he can protect me from the scary silhouettes… or spirits. lol

May was an interesting month. It was my birthday month. May 11 I turned… 29… for the 6th year in a row. Seiuli got me a Ruger LC9. It’s the cutest little 9mm ever. I used it at my CHL class for the very first time. I was nervous since I hadn’t shot that gun yet, but I did well even though I felt like the instructor was breathing down my neck. I would have done better if he hadn’t come up to me in the middle of the test and show me a different way to hold my gun. For some reason sometimes when I shoot I overlap my thumbs. It’s not hurting anyone or messing up my shot, so I didn’t think it made a lot of sense to come try to change it mid-exam. I tried it “his way” the next round on the test and my shots sucked compared to the others. Grrrr… But whatever,  my license to carry should be arriving soon in the mail. “This is Texas. Everybody has a gun. My florist has a gun.” (What movie?)

We’ve found a range in Dallas that has Ladies Night AND gives a law enforcement discount, so we’ve gone there a few times. I shot a Glock the other day and l.o.v.e.d it. It’s too big to carry in my purse though. But I shot it well I think. These were my first 10 shots:

Tristan got really sick a couple of weeks ago. He went on a Father/Son campout with Seiuli and his brothers, then the following Saturday night he said he didn’t feel good. I left him home, sleeping, the next morning while the rest of us (minus Sei who had worked all night…) went to church. I went home mid-church to check on T. He could not move his neck. It was sore and stiff. He had a fever. His throat hurt… So I took him to Urgent Care down the street. They tested him for strep- negative. And sent us immediately to the ER. They wanted him tested for meningitis. So, my big, 16 yr old baby went to the ER for the 1st time in his life. They x-rayed his neck and head, took tons of blood and he had a spinal tap done. All the preliminary tests came back negative. They sent us home with antibiotics for… they didn’t know what. They instructed me to take him to his pediatrician the next day for a recheck. I did and they couldn’t figure anything out. He puked that evening so I kept him home Tuesday. He threw up basically all morning then felt totally fine that night. Wednesday he felt fine so I sent him to school. 1 hour later he was in the nurse’s office puking. Right when I was picking him up they had a fire drill. He puked in the parking lot in front of everyone… I took him back to the dr. They called a neurologist at Cook Children’s Hospital in Fort Worth. He said to come down. So… back to the hospital. Tristan had a shirt over his head the entire drive there and while he laid in the hospital room. They doped him up to help his head stop hurting. The neurologist came in and did tests and said he was fine, neurologically. Basically the doctors that saw him collectively decided it was a virus he was fighting off. $4 million later and he has a virus. The next day he felt 100% better. And he hasn’t been sick since then… Weird. I’m just glad he’s ok. It was not fun watching my baby get a spinal tap.

First I wanna give a “Shout Out” to my PRESERVE GIRLS. I had a ton of fun Saturday and I really appreciate y’all thinking of me!!

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I finally got to relieve some stress this weekend. Sei took me to the shooting range so I could try out my new gun. I LOVED it. I told Sei anytime he wants to take me there as a date, I’m game. When we first got there I suddenly got really nervous and unsure of myself. I also felt like I was dressed wrong because I didn’t have any camoflague on like the men there- lol. But by the end I was feeling a lot better. And I didn’t suck too terribly bad, so that’s always good too…. At least I hit the blue… And no Omar, I wasn’t aiming for the crotch, but hey- I’ll take it!!
The funniest thing I heard at the range?? A man was talking about how he had taken all the CHL classes so he could carry a concealed handgun if he paid his state fees. But there was no way he was gonna pay the state anything because “That’s like payin’ to go to church!” I ? Texas.
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